Saturday, May 21, 2011

~Elizabeth Barret Browing : I love this poem - Women are Amazing!!!

A Woman’s Shortcomings



She has laughed as softly as if she sighed,
She has counted six and over,
Of a purse well filled, and a heart well tried-
Oh each a worthy lover!
They “give her time”; for her soul must slip
Where the world has set the grooving:
She will lie to none with her fair red lip-
But love seeks truer loving.

She trembles her fan in a sweetness dumb,
As her thoughts were beyond recalling,
With a glance for one, and a glance for some,
For her eyelids rising and falling:
Speaks common words with a blushful air,
Hears bold words, unreproving;
But her silence says – what she never will swear-
And love seeks better loving.

Go, Lady lean to the night-guitar,
And drop a smile to the bringer
Then smile as sweetly, when he is far,
At the voice of an indoor singer.
Bask tenderly beneath tender eyes:
Glance lightly at their removing;
And join new vows to old perjuries-
But dare not call it loving.

Unless you can think, when song is done,
No other is soft in the rhythm;
Unless you can feel, when left by one,
That all men else go with him;
Unless you can know, when unpraised by his breath,
That your beauty itself wants proving;
Unless you can swear, “For life, For death!”-
Oh fear not call it loving!

Unless you can muse in a crowd all day,
On the absent face that fixed you;
Unless you can love as the Angels may,
With the breadth of heaven betwixt you:
Unless you can dream that his faith is fast,
Through behoving and unbehoving:
Unless you can die when the dream is past-
Oh never call it loving!

~Elizabeth Barret Browing



This poem reminds me of Memoirs of Geisha – I love that movie – I love this poem - Women are Amazing!!!



Thursday, May 19, 2011

after love lost, love won

after love loss, love won


The real reason I miss you just cant be explained
I loved how it felt
hearing you call my name


To have been in your presence, A blessing itself
I’d had rather been with you,
than any place else


My Prayers to my God were strong and sincere
I prayed for grace
and to Him I drew near


He knew my heart. He knew how it ached.
Because, although not intentional
my heart you did break.


And you taught me a lesson, you and my God.
A very hard lesson
(you spared no the rod).


Yet before you quickly grew tired of me
You blessed me in ways
I have yet to see


You showed me that I, despite my mistakes,
could attract a good person.
I have what it takes!


Before I met you I couldn’t believe
That someone as wonderful as you
Would truly love me


Although your fondness Never grew to love
It sent me a sign
From My God above


It said I’m special to Him And what He has for me
Is far greater and much grander
Than what I foresee


I worry a lot Because I make many mistakes
Yet He blesses me beyond
What should be my fate


And you were a blessing That helped me believe
That a good love will stay
But MY Love won’t leave


You were a good one You just were not mine
But I wished that you were
And would be for all time.


Requirements and qualifications Are an extensive list
And the children and I
Needed more than a wish


A wish can’t provide When help is needed
A wish can’t return love
Its purpose is defeated


So I couldn’t live wishing For someone who Will
But for someone who Does
I’ll wait and be still


If you were any indication Of what is to come
I’ll find contentment in waiting
For you to be outdone


You’re top of the line If anyone ever asks me
So if the plan is for better
Then so shall it be


And although it’s over you’re now just a friend
A new journey began
Because ours came to and end.




2004 ~ princess Original

Thursday, April 21, 2011

LOVE and HOPE

LOVE and HOPE

LOVE is condensed from 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8
[From Paul The Apostle – writer of the Corinthian Epistles (letters)]

LOVE . . .

Is very patient
Is kind
Is never jealous
Is never envious
Is never boastful
Is never proud
Is never haughty

Is never selfish
Is never rude
Does not demand its own way

Is not irritable or touchy
Does not hold grudges
Will hardly even notice when others do it wrong
Is never glad about injustice

Rejoices whenever truth wins out
Is loyal no matter what the cost

Will always believe
Will always expect the best
Will always defend

Love goes on Forever!

~*~*~*~

HOPE . . .
Looks for the good in people instead of harping on the worst in them
Opens doors where despair closes them
Discovers what can be done instead of grumbling about what cannot be done
Draws its power from a deep trust in God and the basic goodness of mankind
“Lights a candle” instead of “cursing the darkness”
Regards problems, small or large, as opportunities
Hope cherishes no illusions, nor does it yield to cynicism
[Hope keeps your head above water when the storms around threaten to drown you
HOPE FLOATS] ~ * ~ Unknown

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Writing my life (inst #1)

Humble beginnings should fit. Though I can not say for certain; it is likely. I would even go so far as to assume that if there have been no lavish living arrangements since I can remember then there were none before my memory began serving me.


In all actuality, my memory extends pretty far back though I have few details on my first home. Most memoratic visuals are a mash-up of pictures and detail pulled from stories and recounts of days gone by. Details which are no doubt enhanced and embellished by my own vivid imagination, then falsely fortified by my keen observance of homes and collections thereof.


No, I don’t remember my first home but I do recall my first house fire.


From what I gather, we lived in an apartment on the second or third floor. A small rather cramped place providing shelter for three generations and the majority of this group were women. The strong matriarch of the family, my grandmother Francess Brown Forney, and the constant whirlwind of aunts, uncles, cousins, and family friends of which I cannot pinpoint what portion were fixed residents and what portion were squatters or visitors.


So many details are vague, subject to interpretation. Although these memories coincide with the ‘Living days” of my mother, I am completely unable to recall a memory that incorporates her. I have no visual that I can recall.

Still ~*~ Holding Your Breath

Still ~*~ Holding Your Breath




One step one breath it all makes sense
That is until trouble steps in
With an all consuming thickness of air
That stifles breathing and leaves despair
Giving a vision that could be the end
As all turns dark – your world closes in
Not wanting to hear “Just give it time”
That’s crazy, that’s too much: My time is mine!
Not truly believing it’ll work out in the end


Not seeing the grace that makes amends


One step one breath just as it should go
Seconds into minutes that’s all I know
Forward motion just as progress implies
The progressive motion now being denied
Stuck with no air and accosted with pain
The end before completion is work in vain
not knowing what I feel and see isn’t true
because it really hurts, I can’t breath, can’t move
not able to see this breath’s not my last


Unable to remember “This too shall pass”


One step one breath, one day at a time
One foot then another is the way we climb
Right now I’m doing all I can do
For right now I’m unable to see my way through
Pathetically stuck, besieged on each side
Not willing to run, no place safe to hide
Not thinking emotions are funny that way
They come on so strong but then fade away
and all that I feel in the midst of pressure
Will change in some form, fashion, or measure


I’ll say this much - I can’t stand the pain


I stand still – I don’t breath – till I’m ready for change


How long will this go? – we’ll all wait and see
If I save myself or someone saves me


Princess Kimberly DBW  - Original March 24, 2011

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

~searching for understanding and acceptance ~

Unknown to many


searching for understanding and acceptance
been searching for a long time among my community
searching without end among friends and family
hoping no one would ask - praying someone would


It's no big deal - only a few aspects of life
but its such a big deal
they will shut you out of their life ~*~ shut you out of their forever
their eternity ~their heaven
~but GOD accepted me long ago ~


The people around me make it hard


The people around me leave me searching


Searching for stories and people to relate to ~*~ searching for connections
searching for understanding and acceptance
COG
No worries Just wonder.

Know Me? ~In your eyes I'm . . .

Because when you asked I answered. . . so you thought you did; however you don’t know me . . . but you could if you tried




How much better would I be if I kept it hid so you wouldn’t see?
You would think so much more of me; but, I wonder how much better would I really be?


Would you think it was great that I refused to love?


Oh that’s right you wouldn’t care to know.
Would virtue then be added to me; and better yet, would it show?


Would you then say I am kind and sweet, taking note of my generosity?
Just one of many traits you didn’t see when you thought you knew me.


You thought you knew me from one word and a look


It can’t tell you how smart I am, it reveals not health, nor wealth, nor lie.
And yet I can’t clearly explain it as attraction, or feelings, or drive.


I would love to say it’s the soft and sweet
but unpredictable is what it turns out to be


As unpredictable as Love


I just want to say it’s NATURAL to me, but that’s not allowed in this society
And it’s common knowledge that is God who’s condemning me.
YOU say if it were up to you, you would leave me be.


But I simply do not believe any of that is true
God loves me, but YOU think you know me, thus I’ll never do.


In your eyes I’m not His child Loved unconditionally – You feel you are much better than me
And you think there is simply no way you will see . . .


Me in heaven?


Won’t you just be so surprised?


And there IS the chance the surprise will be mine . . .


I could be wrong, but YOU? Never!!!!! You Know ME


Kimberly White
January 2011