There is a love that fades????

I know not the Love that fades - yet, at times, I have desired that particular love, in the hopes that a vibrant dream would fade into a past memory.

But no . . . I am left to love forever more ~ good or bad?

Only time will tell ~ tis me yall

When I stop and think . . .

A Short Day Dream

When I stop and think of you
Its as if I’ve stopped to smile
I’ve taken some time to “be with you”
And I try to stay a while

When you become my central thought . . .
(As much as I’d like that to be)
I soon must turn my mind from you
For my thoughts are not reality

 In my mind I feel your hands, your lips,
I touch them slow and soft
If we dare to move closer; go further
We’ll have to pay the cost
But
Within my daydream the price is low
For we’re free to do as we please
We erased the obstacles to becoming intimate
By agreeing to the required fee

And as you know
This is not the truth
It has not come to pass
That is why, you see;
My dreams are short
Long enough to smile or laugh

Original ~Kimberly “Princess” White

Like Me Lovin You

Just Like Love     ~ this just may be  My Best Poetry . . .

Think!

The smoothest set of notes, ever compiled and played.
The sweetest voice, with the widest range.
The smallest thickest cloud
on the brightest warm day.

The rain that comes down, when the sun is shining bright
The huge stars in the sky, on a hot but windy night

Can't you see?
Can't you feel it?
Do you long for it as I do?

Its Just like Love
Like me lovin' you!

Listen!

When you heard the smoothest set of notes, ever compiled and played;
Was it Jazz, was it Funk, was it Blues like lemonade?
Sweet and Sharp - a smooth cut to the ears;
forgetting what was going on - was it all you could hear?

Stopped you in you tracks - you'll never go back
you thought the last was the best
~Now you plead No Contest ~

Its

The smoothest set of notes
ever compiled and played.

Its just like Love
like me lovin' music!

Hear?

When you listened to - the sweetest voice, with the widest range,
could you see yourself rolling on that train?

It stopped at all points north ~ but that's not all. . .
 . . . it rolled back down that waterfall.

The rush you felt when the voice went high

The vibration of the lows,
my.  My!  MY!!

Did you forget to breath when the pitch was held?
Tears - a symbol of how good it felt.

~Yes indeed ~

Its

The sweetest voice
with the widest range.

Its just like Love
like me lovin' song!

Look!

Did you notice the smallest, thickest cloud on the brightest warm day?

Did you ask yourself - How does it get that way?
Small, Soft, and Isolated.
You reach up to touch it ~ but your hands didn't make it.
Did you say to yourself - If I could I would,
Keep it just as it is - for it always should;
Stand out from the rest
and be in the light.
Admired as the best
a sight above sights

~A true blessing to behold ~

Its

The smallest, thickest cloud
on the brightest warm day.

Its just like Love
Like me lovin' beauty!

Feel!

Have you felt the rain that comes down, when the sun is shining bright?
Did you stop and stand where you were because it felt so right?

Yes, it seems out of place
because when it rains it blocks the sun.
But not on that day
the two became one.

Although you got wet - You still felt great.
You could see the light of a beautiful day.

The drops that were felt, were the promise of more,
For if you looked around ~ what was in store?

~A beautiful rainbow ~ because . . .

Its

The rain that comes down
when the sun is shining bright.

Its just like Love

like me lovin miracles!

See?

The huge stars on a hot but windy night;
are the perfect accent to a perfect delight.
Staying out late because its cooler out than in.
The night that you wish would never end.

The cool breeze you've waited for that long, hot day.

The stars so bright they light your way.

~I simply adore~

The huge stars in the sky
on a hot but windy night.

Its just like Love
like me lovin' perfection!

Think of it all. . .
Listen - music
Hear - song
Look - beauty
Feel – miracles
See - perfection

Can't you see it?
Can't you feel it?
Do you long for it as I do?

Its just like Love
Like Me lovin' You

An Original - The Lady Princess

Understand or seek understanding

I speak from understanding and empathy knowing that we all have heavy burdens to bear wether they come form past experiences, present trials, or fears and unsureities regarding what the future holds.

It is an awful feeling to believe that no one cares. That no one is there for you or no one will understand. I also understand that there are some events and feelings that we will never share with any one and that is an entirely different subject. But I’m speaking of that search for understanding when you feel you’re all alone.

The first understanding you shoul come to is that it is highly unlikely that you will find someone with the same trial and the same circumstances. You are unique and your life is a path that you are the very first to travel. However every feeling that you feel has also been felt by countless others . . .there are those who understand.

Countless others have had to make crucial decisions, life changing decisions. . . there are those who understand.

Sadness and dispair is sadness and dispair regardless of the onset or circumstances . . . there are those who understand.

Joy and elation is joy and elation regardless of age, time or location . . . there are those who understand.

Everyone you have ever met either has or will have to deal will loss and regardless of the differences in detail if you know what its like to loose something or someone, you know what it feels like to lose something or someone . . . there are those who understand.

Talk with me . . .  you may understand me or I may understand you . . .

A Question of Faith >>>

A Question of Faith

I often wonder how it works.
Can I just believe?
I often wonder will it work,
will I live to see?

I often think of what it takes.
Do I have enough?
Just what shall I add to faith. . .
work, hope, love?

I cannot walk in faith alone . . .
Is it all I need?
Should I work to gather love,
or can I just believe?

Must I hope love will come?
Is it all for nought?
Can my faith stand alone,
when work comes to a halt?

When love cannot be felt or found,
will my faith succeed,
In reassuring me love abounds,
for God is love indeed.

When hope has been chiseled away,
by the storms of life.
Will faith help me stand my ground.
when I must deal with strife?

If I’m simply too exhausted
to find the strength within,
and I have to break from working . . .
Will my faith carry me then?

Can these questions be answered
or must I simply live and learn?
Is the answer right in front of me,
yet difficult to discern?

Is my faith enough?
Or will it require more,
when I left behind
as hope and love walk out the door
Is my faith enough,

when work is not allowed
will I be unable to see
a face among the crowd
Will it all over whelm me?
Will I drift away?
I’ll work hard, give and accept love
And hope my faith will stay.

In the end I hope to find
if in my works there is something I lack
and it comes to a point where faith isn’t enough
then Love has my back.

an Original ~Princess

Flowers For the Living - 2005

Flowers For the Living


Often times flowers are for
those who have gone on
But this is my flower of appreciation
Because of you I’m not alone

I’m taking this time to tell you
for if I don’t you may never know
How much you’ve truly blessed me
by the Love and support you show

The Lord has recently shown me
My life up to this day
He pointed to the many Angels
who have helped me along the way

Many of them will never know
the amazing difference they’ve made
That’s when I realized I must tell you
For it’s now my respects should be paid

I’m sincerely saying; Thank You

Its coming form the heart
I want you to know how special you are
before our paths grow apart

You’ve prayed for me and helped me
im more ways than I can describe
Sometimes it was just your smile, your presence
That made you the angle by my side

To you I owe much
and much I should be giving
but please accept this small thing
A Flower For The Living

Written in love for all the Angels who have been there for me and mine.
I love you all
a Princess Kimberly Original - 2005

the gift of YOU~SPECIAL GIFTS

Thank you


Most of my poetry strongly exemplifies what lies at the heart of my life - I have been through a
lot (as we all have) but the important thing is how I made it through . . . so, I owe a lot! My heart
is filled with the love He has shown. As undeserving as I am - we all have a “track record” but. . .

We also have . . .
SPECIAL GIFTS

There is a special gift we give, with each kind word we say.
A special gift is received, with each prayer we pray.

A special gift is shared, in every passing hello.
A gift comes with every thought, of the special ones we know.

Every blessing is given, that it might be available to share.
And, In our doing so, someone learns that Jesus cares.

At times we fail to realize, the difference that we make,
when we share a portion of our lives, without calling it a mistake
Someone needs to know, that we gladly offer,
the love first given unto us, by our Heavenly Father.

We will not always have, the customary gratitude,
for sometimes the gift is not understood, for another year or two

But . . .
a special gift is missed when we forget to smile
a special gift is longed for when we don’t speak for a while

when we tell someone how we feel, a trapped gift is set free
and I can not tell you
just how much
the gift of YOU
means to me

Princess Kimberly Original
Kimberly D White

"Arise woman"

Writing and Poetry

I need to talk. . .

"Arise woman"
I know who I need to talk to. . .
Yes, It's You

You, who has been my buckler through all this.
You, who continues to make my way plain,
through blessing after blessing
(although I don't deserve it) However, (Hallelujah) You have made it known that It's already mine.

I don't have to work for It ~ yet to I must learn to have It
and NO
I don't deserve It - but to have it I must Die

For you have called me
your own
and have given me Life over death
and I humbly accepted.

Questionable and wrong,
but still useful in your plan.
It's already mine?

Stop worrying?
Yes.
Walk in Freedom

He has said,

"I've given it to you,
but you must walk in it!
Come, lay it all here at my feet,
and know
I Am, The Lord your God.
I, who spoke you into being,
will place your every step
according to my plan for you.
Arise!"

Walk in the full ness of your blessing!
Faith,
If you truly accept it,
Salvation!!
Walk in Freedom!

Lay aside all chains,
they have long since been broken.

Walk in Freedom
Yes
I needed to talk to You.

But are You talking to me? or, are you talking through me?
I feel blessed.
As your child.
Redeemed by you,
being purified by you,
to be transformed by you,
I will, walk in the fullness of ,
Mother (for You will be their Father)

Doctor (for You will heal through me)

Servant (for You gave a perfect Teacher with a perfect lesson plan{JESUS})

Woman (for You created me).

-K. D. W. '06
Happy Mothers day!!

Relationships require . . . (yes there are times)

Relationships require Hard Work and Endurance


No! . . . Not Love.
No. Not this time.

HERE we emphasize hard work and endurance.
You can’t take the First Step twice, and Love IS the first step.
Nope! Here, you walk
No first steps and love is not the focus

HERE its hard work and endurance.

~Work Is Not Relative! It does not depend on your opinion, nor does it chang with your mood.
WORK just IS (and this is hard work).

It begs to be completed whether you enjoy it or not.
When you don’t address it ~*~ it remains undone, incomplete, and unfulfilled.
It remains work.

No one can do your work for you.
~You Can Not fulfill the obligations of another; for when work is assumed by another it becomes the possession of another ~*~ Their Work. . . . leaving behind them the work the YOU MUST DO.

Your work remains undone . . . You still have work to do.

So you see this is not about love because I Love You!
This here is about hard work and endurance. . .
How long will your work go undone?
And most importantly. . .

How long are you willing to Work?
Endurance is required!!!!!

)riginal – Princess Kimberly ~ White Dec 2010

an intoxicating event

. . . meeting and getting to know someone new is an intoxicating event for a person like me – I thrive on shared wisdom and learning from the experiences of others . . . There is so much I want to do, see, read about, and experience that there is no way, realistically, that I can do it all – but. . . God being so great; he has given me (just as he has given everyone else) a world full of interesting people to learn from and share with and for each one I meet I am grateful; by each exchange I am blessed >>> With shared knowledge we can have a stronger community – but for some reason (I know it is because we are all different) many people don’t like to share.


Our time is so short here and we HAVE because so many others have worked and shared, preservation and perseverance dictates and requires that we not only show extensive respect and appreciation for those that came before, but we must also pay it forward and all around – Encouragement of the spirit and soul is a great way to share with the current population because it spreads and escalates and leads to development. Planning, education, and creativity are the best ways to pay it forward and provide for those who are yet to come. But we can’t just be hearers, contemplators, observers, or initiators – we must be doers and completers (I say this as encouragement, and development for my own soul – I have started so many projects over the past 10 years but I really need to see most of them to completion)

I could go on and on about my views and understandings – I like to talk but let me add that I read a lot of nonfiction and I can be a deep thinker >>> but we’ll keep it light lol ~ I certainly have a solid belief system, a lot of faith, and a few religiosities but for the most part I’m open minded, understanding, tolerant, respectful, and forgiving. Above all I’m curious about the behaviors, and journeys of others and how their paths intertwine with mine.

~ Original Princess K D White

~Elizabeth Barret Browing : I love this poem - Women are Amazing!!!

A Woman’s Shortcomings

She has laughed as softly as if she sighed,
She has counted six and over,
Of a purse well filled, and a heart well tried-
Oh each a worthy lover!
They “give her time”; for her soul must slip
Where the world has set the grooving:
She will lie to none with her fair red lip-
But love seeks truer loving.

She trembles her fan in a sweetness dumb,

As her thoughts were beyond recalling,

With a glance for one, and a glance for some,

For her eyelids rising and falling:

Speaks common words with a blushful air,

Hears bold words, unreproving;

But her silence says – what she never will swear-

And love seeks better loving.

Go, Lady lean to the night-guitar,

And drop a smile to the bringer

Then smile as sweetly, when he is far,

At the voice of an indoor singer.

Bask tenderly beneath tender eyes:

Glance lightly at their removing;

And join new vows to old perjuries-

But dare not call it loving.

Unless you can think, when song is done,

No other is soft in the rhythm;

Unless you can feel, when left by one,

That all men else go with him;

Unless you can know, when unpraised by his breath,

That your beauty itself wants proving;

Unless you can swear, “For life, For death!”-

Oh fear not call it loving!

Unless you can muse in a crowd all day,

On the absent face that fixed you;

Unless you can love as the Angels may,

With the breadth of heaven betwixt you:

Unless you can dream that his faith is fast,

Through behoving and unbehoving:

Unless you can die when the dream is past-

Oh never call it loving!

~Elizabeth Barret Browing

This poem reminds me of Memoirs of Geisha – I love that movie – I love this poem - Women are Amazing!!!



after love lost, love won

after love loss, love won


The real reason I miss you just cant be explained
I loved how it felt
hearing you call my name


To have been in your presence, A blessing itself
I’d had rather been with you,
than any place else


My Prayers to my God were strong and sincere
I prayed for grace
and to Him I drew near


He knew my heart. He knew how it ached.
Because, although not intentional
my heart you did break.


And you taught me a lesson, you and my God.
A very hard lesson
(you spared no the rod).


Yet before you quickly grew tired of me
You blessed me in ways
I have yet to see


You showed me that I, despite my mistakes,
could attract a good person.
I have what it takes!


Before I met you I couldn’t believe
That someone as wonderful as you
Would truly love me


Although your fondness Never grew to love
It sent me a sign
From My God above


It said I’m special to Him And what He has for me
Is far greater and much grander
Than what I foresee


I worry a lot Because I make many mistakes
Yet He blesses me beyond
What should be my fate


And you were a blessing That helped me believe
That a good love will stay
But MY Love won’t leave


You were a good one You just were not mine
But I wished that you were
And would be for all time.


Requirements and qualifications Are an extensive list
And the children and I
Needed more than a wish


A wish can’t provide When help is needed
A wish can’t return love
Its purpose is defeated


So I couldn’t live wishing For someone who Will
But for someone who Does
I’ll wait and be still


If you were any indication Of what is to come
I’ll find contentment in waiting
For you to be outdone


You’re top of the line If anyone ever asks me
So if the plan is for better
Then so shall it be


And although it’s over you’re now just a friend
A new journey began
Because ours came to and end.




2004 ~ princess Original

LOVE and HOPE

LOVE and HOPE

LOVE is condensed from 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8
[From Paul The Apostle – writer of the Corinthian Epistles (letters)]

LOVE . . .

Is very patient
Is kind

Is never jealous

Is never envious

Is never boastful

Is never proud

Is never haughty

Is never selfish

Is never rude

Does not demand its own way

Is not irritable or touchy

Does not hold grudges

Will hardly even notice when others do it wrong

Is never glad about injustice

Rejoices whenever truth wins out

Is loyal no matter what the cost

Will always believe

Will always expect the best

Will always defend

Love goes on Forever!

~*~*~*~

HOPE . . .
Looks for the good in people instead of harping on the worst in them
Opens doors where despair closes them
Discovers what can be done instead of grumbling about what cannot be done
Draws its power from a deep trust in God and the basic goodness of mankind
“Lights a candle” instead of “cursing the darkness”
Regards problems, small or large, as opportunities
Hope cherishes no illusions, nor does it yield to cynicism
[Hope keeps your head above water when the storms around threaten to drown you
HOPE FLOATS] ~ * ~ Unknown

Writing my life (inst #1)

Humble beginnings should fit. Though I can not say for certain; it is likely. I would even go so far as to assume that if there have been no lavish living arrangements since I can remember then there were none before my memory began serving me.


In all actuality, my memory extends pretty far back though I have few details on my first home. Most memoratic visuals are a mash-up of pictures and detail pulled from stories and recounts of days gone by. Details which are no doubt enhanced and embellished by my own vivid imagination, then falsely fortified by my keen observance of homes and collections thereof.


No, I don’t remember my first home but I do recall my first house fire.


From what I gather, we lived in an apartment on the second or third floor. A small rather cramped place providing shelter for three generations and the majority of this group were women. The strong matriarch of the family, my grandmother Francess Brown Forney, and the constant whirlwind of aunts, uncles, cousins, and family friends of which I cannot pinpoint what portion were fixed residents and what portion were squatters or visitors.


So many details are vague, subject to interpretation. Although these memories coincide with the ‘Living days” of my mother, I am completely unable to recall a memory that incorporates her. I have no visual that I can recall.

Still ~*~ Holding Your Breath

Still ~*~ Holding Your Breath




One step one breath it all makes sense
That is until trouble steps in
With an all consuming thickness of air
That stifles breathing and leaves despair
Giving a vision that could be the end
As all turns dark – your world closes in
Not wanting to hear “Just give it time”
That’s crazy, that’s too much: My time is mine!
Not truly believing it’ll work out in the end


Not seeing the grace that makes amends


One step one breath just as it should go
Seconds into minutes that’s all I know
Forward motion just as progress implies
The progressive motion now being denied
Stuck with no air and accosted with pain
The end before completion is work in vain
not knowing what I feel and see isn’t true
because it really hurts, I can’t breath, can’t move
not able to see this breath’s not my last


Unable to remember “This too shall pass”


One step one breath, one day at a time
One foot then another is the way we climb
Right now I’m doing all I can do
For right now I’m unable to see my way through
Pathetically stuck, besieged on each side
Not willing to run, no place safe to hide
Not thinking emotions are funny that way
They come on so strong but then fade away
and all that I feel in the midst of pressure
Will change in some form, fashion, or measure


I’ll say this much - I can’t stand the pain


I stand still – I don’t breath – till I’m ready for change


How long will this go? – we’ll all wait and see
If I save myself or someone saves me


Princess Kimberly DBW  - Original March 24, 2011

~searching for understanding and acceptance ~

Unknown to many


searching for understanding and acceptance
been searching for a long time among my community
searching without end among friends and family
hoping no one would ask - praying someone would


It's no big deal - only a few aspects of life
but its such a big deal
they will shut you out of their life ~*~ shut you out of their forever
their eternity ~their heaven
~but GOD accepted me long ago ~


The people around me make it hard


The people around me leave me searching


Searching for stories and people to relate to ~*~ searching for connections
searching for understanding and acceptance
COG
No worries Just wonder.

Know Me? ~In your eyes I'm . . .

Because when you asked I answered. . . so you thought you did; however you don’t know me . . . but you could if you tried




How much better would I be if I kept it hid so you wouldn’t see?
You would think so much more of me; but, I wonder how much better would I really be?


Would you think it was great that I refused to love?


Oh that’s right you wouldn’t care to know.
Would virtue then be added to me; and better yet, would it show?


Would you then say I am kind and sweet, taking note of my generosity?
Just one of many traits you didn’t see when you thought you knew me.


You thought you knew me from one word and a look


It can’t tell you how smart I am, it reveals not health, nor wealth, nor lie.
And yet I can’t clearly explain it as attraction, or feelings, or drive.


I would love to say it’s the soft and sweet
but unpredictable is what it turns out to be


As unpredictable as Love


I just want to say it’s NATURAL to me, but that’s not allowed in this society
And it’s common knowledge that is God who’s condemning me.
YOU say if it were up to you, you would leave me be.


But I simply do not believe any of that is true
God loves me, but YOU think you know me, thus I’ll never do.


In your eyes I’m not His child Loved unconditionally – You feel you are much better than me
And you think there is simply no way you will see . . .


Me in heaven?


Won’t you just be so surprised?


And there IS the chance the surprise will be mine . . .


I could be wrong, but YOU? Never!!!!! You Know ME


Kimberly White
January 2011